I think this is what I’ve been working on for most of this year, and now that this year is coming to a close and a new one is dawning, I’m beginning to see my efforts manifesting in the loveliest of ways, heralding a new stage of my life.
There are still many challenges I’m facing — financial for one. I find that many people who have been involved in abusive relationships take a hit not only in the emotional and psychological realm, but in their financial world as well. But this is a very powerful step for me, and while I know I’m sounding somewhat nebulous, I can say that as soon as this move is completed, I’ll be in a much more empowered position to not only create but to live the kind of life I’ve always wanted to live — a creative life without apology within a peaceful environment.
There was a time I never thought I’d get here. Maybe that’s where you are.
If so, there’s more to life and that life has a place for you. Even with all the current challenges I still have to deal with, I am happier than I’ve ever been. Because I don’t feel like I’m spinning my wheels. I don’t feel like I’m going in circles. Which is exactly what you feel like when the person who is supposed to be your partner isn’t, and the one who’s supposed to support you is the who does the most to sabotage you.
Raising a child who has a narcissist for a parent, on your own, as difficult as it is, is always better than living with that parent. I know I could not have been there for my child as I had these past years if I had remained in that relationship. I would have been too busy trying to keep my own head above water, never mind trying to save my child from drowning.
It was important to get away to create a safe and contrasting environment for my child… and for me. I appreciate that more and more with each passing day.
And now, I’m taking it to the next step.
I just want to encourage you to own your strength, to let yourself tap into it, to let it be real, because it is.
Stay strong, and stay true.
~ Keeping the Dream